Here I am, just starting a new job, and back on the computer. This is the last chance I'll have as a teacher, and a happy family life. If I screw this up, then it's all over for me.

In a desperate effort to resolve inconsistent past performances with my present expectations, I've begun this dialogue with myself, and shared wtih the world. Like most of "us" I am a man of pride, but I am forced to the full realization of the power of cliche "None of us is as good as all of us."

With that spirit, I am asking for your help. I have just begun this, but I imagine there is a way to contact people who post here, or to comment on posting. If you have advice about things I write here, let me know. A word of warning -- this is not a sex stunt, a cry for pity, or an idle way to pass my hours, I am attempting a radical shift in the focus of my life and how I express my inner-most thoughts to the world around me. If you might feel tempted to joke, quip, or otherwise banter with any of this information, then keep it to yourself, or find some other venue for your venom, becuase this ain't it!!

I would be grateful for any legimate sharing, advice, or words of wisdom. I will, when prompted, respond in kind. I'm going to change with or without this job, this "blog", or your commments, but I feel the change will be more proeductive with these things.

Well, I have begun, more than I usually do. Now, back to other stuff before I get fired my first week -- again.